Back and better than ever!!!

So not true but what the hell. I know you, my peeps, have given up on me actually "maintaining" this blog. I could go through a long list of the reasons I haven't updated in a while but why keep making excuses? The biggest reason is because I'm addicted to Facebook and every single moment of my spare time (which is less and less these days) is spent there. Besides, life's been pretty boring and I hate bogging down my blog with my manic depressive thoughts.

I will tell you that I'm once again in a very dark place. Let's face it, you all know me well enough to know that I've lived in a dimly lit world, at least mostly dim, for a long time. But now it's completely dark. I feel like if you could view a window to my soul you'd see it rocking back and forth on the cold linoleum floor of life, a totally unfurnished dirty room, legs crossed in the "Indian position", twirling a piece of my hair with one hand, making letters on the floor with the other as if the floor were sand, all while humming "Rock-a-bye-baby." Seriously, it's getting the better of me.

For those that wonder, I'm still in therapy. Thankfully it may be the one constant in my life that has helped more than anything. While I can't get into specifics at this time regarding the source of my depression I will tell you that it's got nothing to do with the physical death of someone. It's more about a "loss" in broader terms.

But I promise that very soon, I will post with more regularity and more upbeat posts and tell you all the gory details of this thing called life.

Until then my hons, much love!

Jules